"This And That"

Since it has been almost a week and I have not posted anything I figured that I would just get on and type a few lines. Not much is going on these days. Just work, spending time with family, and church. I don't mean to sound womanish in saying this but man am I lonely. I really only have one friend here that I have kept in touch with from high school and he works alot so I barely see him as it is. I have been praying alot lately that God will put people in my life here and that I can get plugged in somewhere at my church (such as a bible study group). I have decided to join a softball league this summer so things should change in this area once practice starts. Well its almost 3am, I'm just chillin here at work and finally have been able to take a breather. I have a really needy group of patients tonight but it does have a payoff in that its keeping me awake. I'll probably be heading down to the prayer chapel in about 20 (I don't think I need to tell you why I am going). Ok I feel like God is telling me to share one truth He has been teaching me lately. Let me start by saying that there are three situations in my life right now that are very distressing to me. It doesn't matter what they are but they have me in an on and off state of worry, fear, and doubt. One of these situations far exceeds the rest. What I have noticed is this: Whenever I take God out of the equation of the situation I start to freak out. I focus on solving the problem on my own strength and leave God in the rearview mirror (John 15:5). The truth is this: I am weak and I have no strength to overcome or solve these things that have me in turmoil. I only have the strength that Christ has been so gracious enough to provide me with. Remember people (if anyone even reads this :-)) God always has a plan and He will always take over a situation and correct it for His glory if you will only put it in His hands and trust Him. I leave you with the lyrics of one of my favorite recent songs. It is a duet with KJ52 and Jeremy Camp:

I cant say that I know just what you're dealing with
But it's so plain that it shows just what your feelings is
But I suppose that your pain that you're living with
It comes and goes and fills your mind now with hopelessness
But I know someone who comes with life to give
And His love is the reason why my life can live
Just one touch is all you're needing 'Cause He died to give you so much but you can't see 'cause you struggle with
So many things up in your life you're frustrated with
Nothing seems to be going right I know you're hating it
But let me tell you see I've been through what you experienced
And I've come to see the source of who my healing is
If it's divorce or anything else making it hard to live
I gotta tell you you can make it just through all of this
'Cause everywhere you go He's there for you it's obvious
Don't be scared no more cause this is why I'm saying this

I remember times when I couldn't find my peace of mind
When I felt I couldn't see now cuz I was blind
All the time You was there and then You freed my eyes
Made me realize that You was all I need in life
From the deepest oceans all the way up to the skies
There is no place were I could go and no place to hide
That your hands wouldnt show the way and be my guide
You're never far away You'll always be my peace in life

So right now just with anything you face in life
Understand you can always find strength in Christ
God has a plan just for every single part of your lives
That might be hard to understand in your troubled times
But anywere you go He's there with arms open wide
He cares for you don't you know there's no need to cry
I know this road is hard c'mon it's gonna be alright
He loves you so much it's time that you realize....

Everywhere I go I know you're not far away
You're right here, you're right here, yeah
Everywhere I go I know you're not far away
You're right here, you're right here, yeah