"His Joy Is Also My Own"

Lately I have been thinking an awful lot about joy. I rededicated my life to the Lord not too long ago now after a period of unbelief and rebellion. Since I have come back into fellowship with Him I have definetely noticed this simple thing....I am happy for no reason. Its great, I wake up in the morning (or afternoon rather) with a smile on my face, I am more positive and always looking for the brighter side of things, and so on. To the blind eye do I really have any reason to be this happy? The answer is not really. Things really are not going that well in my life right now. People that were the closest to me relationally are now very far away, things that were concrete are now quick sand, I constantly have fear and doubts concerning my future, etc... But still even in all of this I cant help to have joy. Sure I have my fears, concerns, and bad days just like everyone else. However, I am learning to look at these things with a different perspective. And to get through them I am using Christ's strength and not my own. I don't know where I am going to go from here and I feel more in the dark now concerning my future than ever. But I do take my refuge and rest in the fact that the One who sits on the throne in heaven this very moment does have a plan for me and He is constantly reminding me that I am no longer in this alone. Praise God!!
"In my mind's eye, I see your face You smile as You show me grace.
In my mind's eye, You take my hand we walk through foreign lands....the foreign
lands of life"
Romans 15:13